Life and Lemons

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Is it really so difficult to be content with your life? There is always something that could be better and instead of focussing on the good, we always focus on what we think is missing.

 

I have a good job, I am doing what I trained hard to do. I know its very difficult in these times to be able to say that, jobs are hard to come by and especially good jobs. I am immensely grateful each day that I am able to say I have a good job and that I am also good and what I do.

Secondly - I have an amazing family and friends. After living away from everyone for 18 months, words cannot describe the feeling of being close to everyone again. I love that live so close to my family and friends and I love that my social life is existent again when for so long my life was work and nothing else.

 

I am thankful for the above I really am, I consider myself lucky. Life can often be sectioned into 3 main areas - work, house, love.  I have 3 out of 3. I have my job, I have my own place and I have the love of my family and friends. However I am missing one thing from the love section. Something that the majority of my friends have and that I am lacking. A partner, a boyfriend. At 28 I don't really consider myself old and I am aware that love happens when you least expect it.

 

I've dabbled in online dating and for most of the time I am very happy being single. I am confident with who I am and really I know that I don't need anyone else to 'validate' me as such. However on the back of another failed attempt at romance - I cant help  but feel sub-par. I had good feelings about this guy. it was the first time in goodness knows how long that I thought something 'could' happen here. Alas he has met someone else and was totally upfront about it, this is a good quality. I appreciate this honesty, lets face it at this early stage of our romance - he didn't owe me that.

 

So here I am, weighed down by the fact I was essentially rejected by someone I have known for 3 weeks, really wondering what it is about me that seems to be unattractive to the opposite sex. My last serious relationship was 4 years ago and in that time my ex has managed to find someone and marry them. What have I done? Yes I could say that I have been busy building the other aspects of my life, but now that I am settled back home, with a good job and a lovely home I would just love to have someone else to share it with. Is that too much to ask?

 

Is it too much that this has warranted its own blog self deprecating blog post?

 

 



 

 

Number 1.

Slowly, ever so slowly I am moving out of my 20's and into my 30's. Next month I will be 28, which in the grand scheme of ages is not very old at all. Still I've always been led to believe that yours 20's are the fun filled years - the years where you get 'stuff done' 'find yourself' etc etc.
I can look back over the past 8 years and yes, I can conclude that I have had fun and I have got 'stuff done'.
I've done some of the big milestones, I've been in love, I've been to university, I got myself a career and a good job, I've moved out of my parents house and I've even started saving for a deposit.
It's been 10 years since I was 18. No my life isn't what I thought it would be, but then who's really is? I would have loved to achieved more - travelled more, stayed in love, bought a house. But over the past 8 years it just wasn't meant to be, but that's not to say I haven't achieved anything because I have.
Enter the '30 before 30' this is a concept that has been whirling round the internet for some time, basically it consists of compiling a list of 30 things to achieve before (Wait for it) the age of 30.
I am going to share my list with you, some of it is trivial, some of it is a little more meaningful.

1. Live in my own place - 9.12.2013
2. Get a job in my chosen career - 25.10.2013
3. Fall in Love
4. Get an iPhone - 10.6.2014
5. Reach 8 stone
6. Visit Paris
7. Own a designer bag - 6.4.2015
8. See a West End Musical
9. Adopt an animal - 26.4.2014
10. Buy a designer piece of clothing - 8.2014
11. Focus and improve my business
12. Watch the sunrise on the beach.
13. Visit Beamish
14. Start cross stitching again - 12.2013
15. Get a new piercing/tattoo - 8.2013
16. Buy a new car - 20.6.2014
17. Use my bike more
18. Graduate University - 7.2013
19. Go on Holiday
20. Seize opportunities.
21. Visit Italy
22. Print more photos - 16.9.2013
23. Learn to admit when I'm wrong
24. Spend a day exploring London
25. Take a random drive.
26. Go to an arena concert - 12.2014
27. Maintain an exercise routine
28. See more family
29. Enjoy the break between uni and work - 12.2013
30. Move up the next banding at work

Still more then half to go!